Profound Affects

I met a girl, we were friends for awhile until she became a complete imbecile. She led me to meet two other girls who I became friends with and have great memories with from the Winter of 2010. These girls lead me to a bar where they met a guy that put me in the position to meet a guy and a group of people that changed me forever. Now to this day... I am friends nor acquaintances with not one of them.

Cynical I know, but also truly incredible... How you could learn so much, from give or take 13 people whom you no longer associate with.

This happens every day. It happens all of the time. It's normal actually.

Every tiny thing we do affects the next thing that happens to us or the people and things around us. My current slouching isn't helping my back for the future. Typing this right now is going to affect myself or someone in the future. It could be causing more sleep deprivation that could affect tomorrow in everything I do (future) which could lead to an endless number of things happening which changes everything in the wide world around me.

Recently everything I have done to affect what happens next in my life, has been the best steps I could make. Whether it be Zeus, Jesus above, or something else I don't know of... I have been making "it" very content.

I had an amazing chat on the Fourth of July with my Aunt Netta. She really stressed to me the importance of taking risks and chances in life... making sure I was always following wherever the wild wind blew my unchained heart. I appreciate that conversation with her more than she will probably ever know. I dont ever wanna look back and say... "If I could do that over again, I woulda..." I've been living like I was dying, and divulging in the treasures that make my soul smile.

It made me think of what would be best for me, what would make me truly happy.

True happiness is in the accidents.... it's in the moment... it's laughing your butt off with your pod mate at work over typos her boyfriend sends in his text messages. It's always loving and treating someone you don't know with the highest respect to see them smile, and know you might have helped there day a teensy weensy bit. It's knowing out of a zillion people in someones life they choose you to be one of 4 people standing next to them at their wedding... the supposed most important day of their life... even if they have 12 more important days in their lifetime... :)

I dont ever want to feel any worse than I aleady have a certain times in my short life... but if it is what I have to do to learn the lessons to move me on to other amazing things that will come after that... then so be it... break my heart... beat me down... call me names... but dont think I will stay down forever.

It's impossible.

heres some picture clues to the next few months for me.... If I don't affect anything.